23:40 - Green Man for the moment

yep. i played green man of the moment. with FBO, chin up high, fist tightly clenched, and- ready to strike! er. wrong. its- advance and overcome!. . if not extra ah. siao.

16:08 - "Wonderful recovery surprise" and the army

The army did it again. besides taking up two over years of my time, they did it again. on my 6 year anniversary! my baby and myself were so going to enjoy ourselves at vivocity and all, but the dreaded 'important message' came to me via their sophisticated phone delivery system- (those that you press 1, press 2 then press 6 to acknowledge). and i was moblised.

i don't mind going back to my beach resort camp. but not on my anniversary! out of 365 days a year. what are the chances? i won't go further to say how and what they screwed up, but you get my drift. my day banged the wrong way. all the wonderful planned out day. haiz.

ok. so i have about one or so more hours to go and my intial plan flopped (not my fault that is). BUT. but but. the creative one has came up with something. a "recovery surprise". yes. a "wonderful recovery surprise" plan. so if you are wondering what is that "wonderful recovery surprise" (by now you should be really curious right?) go to my baby's blog (link on right.). in time that is.

anyway, got to go. the nation calls. with great power comes great responsiblility.

23:04 - On the verge of collaspe

Oh yes. i was so close to a total breakdown. even as i speak now, my limbs are pretty much asleep. one of my limbs sort of went 'limb' this morning after my madness drive last night then 5am. i was so freaked out and the news article about the 27+ girl who passed away after sucumbing to total body breakdown keep flashing across my mind. hey! is that a sign? work and study is NO NO NO easy feat. really. I'm not blowing trumpets here but imagine after a long (loooong) day at work and you come home only to log on the net in search of not leisure but JOURNALS!!! arghh. try printing two pages in one and stare at words at font size 6?

my limbs are now swaying like leaves on a branch. and i am so going to embrace and apply my saliva all over my pillow and melttt into my bed. ooooo. the only reason why I am writing this is to REMIND myself that the past few days has been very hell week. and the only reason why I had to go thro all this is because of poor time management. baby and myself cannot deny this. hey. i didn't pay top money to study in Monash only to grind my butt and wreak my life.

ok. point taken. i have a long way to go. and wreaking my body isn't the right direction i should be heading. i really did feel my body hitting the extreme and its freaky. back from the valley of total breakdown, i have only God to thank. for all the timely daily bread readings.

oh. and also my partner in this body breaking experience, my baby! i think she's totally wasted on her bed liao. i better go join her in dreamland and wet my pillow now. zzz.

quote? people drive machines. but what drives people? inspiration and determination! and thats what i need.