22:50 - Directions?

On my way to the airport to see baby's big sis-ta' (as baby affectionately addresses) and husband off to Australia for her honours, i saw my flight steward friend again (how ironic, airport- steward?). i didn't manage to say hi cos i was in the bus and he was in his car. clipped on a bluetooth headset, driving a sleek black sports car, he looked great. but then again, who wouldn't?

he made me wonder for my own future. where would i be? what should i be? who should i be? so many questions about the directions in life. but how and what path to take? i have reached the point in your life whereby every step i decide to take has a significant impact on my life. just like a minefield. just with that one wrong step, you'll be blown to bits. probably not that fatal but to a certain waste of time and/or money.

anyway, my degree is in its works (class starting tomorrow.. uhhh), and my current corporate communications position is giving me enough learning and exposure to my field of interest. but should i be satisfied? am i doing enough? tomorrow is always a big question.

i will ponder over this. but have you had your's today? not milk but pondering lah.

no self quotes- too busy pondering.. hmmnnn.

22:45 - The hair on my head

I did not know i have so many concerned friends. i have to thank them for their well wishes and concerns when they saw me... and my hair. no, i did not have an accident, gone reservist or re-hab. what really happened was bad estimation. i told my baby," clip size 12 all throughout" without listening to her advice. haiz. sometimes, it does pay to listen. anyway, the hair on my head is gone.



yes. i added the rainbow to brighten up the picture. doesn't emphasize on the shiny forehead does it? anyway, today's daily bread reading talks about how something within the each of us that values how much we look on the outside more than who we are on the inside. and how the inward reality is what that really counts. what timely encouragement! so together with the readings and my no.1 fan, my baby, i managed to maintain productivity and ignore concerned strangers.

anyway, it doesn't look that bad either.

"you can't tell how sweet a fruit is from the outside." anyway, hair can grow. cheers!

23:10 - #01 Rumblings

#01 Rumblings? ya. something like talking about everything and anything with no specific title, similar to jibbish but not rubbish (it rhymes!).

anyway, i met two friends today. the first was in the lift of my office building when i was rushing to watch EPIC MOVIE (which turned out to be the most powerful Capital L for lamest spoof movie anyone can ever produce..). She was baby's classmate in Poly and now graduated with a degree and working as a mortgage specialist or something. it was weird b'cos i have been working there for 4 months and like never seen her before? anyway, today i was telling my baby the reason why i could be so blind at times was b'cos i was 100% focused on her. and her response? she just kept laughing... piangz. anyway, i wonder will it be another 4 months when i see her in the lift again? then again not. my office will be shifting to an "undisclosed location". just another day, i was in a conversation with both my bosses about the shifting and my A.Director said Woodlands was a good location. and the usually quiet and obedient me shot out, 'no way! it better be pasir ris!' as fast as anything. to tell you the truth, i'm a big fan of Pasir ris. it's a beautiful place really. a little quiet cosy kokomo (beach) place in the corner of the SG map and the place i met my baby. anyway, quick thinking me realised i was overly excited so to save my own skin i said, 'em.. its near the beach (i realise it does not relate) and has an environment that fosters good and productive work (deserve a distinction for this answer..)'. however, she could see i was bullshitting (obviously right?) and added, "and i heard they'll have it next to your place". "?!"

ok. i rumble off track already. like i was saying, i met two friends. the other person was my primary school mate of SA. when we were boys, he was a good honest looking (still is) pokka-dot lover. meaning, he was into St Margaret girls. anyway, he called out to me but being the ever focused with my girlfriend me, i nearly missed him altogether. so we chatted and he told me he was an air steward with SIA?! gosh. in my mind i was like how many guys do they actually take in? anyway, in our short conversation, he gave me a shocking update on my other old school friends- one (poor) chap married to a China girl(?!), another engaged and marrying soon, and a few hanging around. so we exchanged numbers and promised to catch up some day.

a steward... my perception of them are that they are totally zero job stress and the only two worries are lossing hair due to high altitudes and difficult/mad (as in both terrorist mad and siao mad)/and gay people who grope them on board- heard there is alot of gropers out there... and so comparing my ever so active and demanding job to his. oh. like the chinese proverb, heaven and earth apart....

today, i'm so depress at work. probably b'cos school's starting soon and outlets are opening like no one's business (and thus the work also doubling like no one's business). it might also be due to my A.manager boss who recently broke up with her beau of 8 years due to a strain in their overseas relationship. you know how other people's mood could affect your own mood directly? its true! especially if the person is your own direct boss. anyway, tomorrow i'll wear a bright red shirt and reflect all this ill-stained air and depression around me. it's the Chinese New Year man. time for a WANG WANG!.

oh speaking of depression, i had a very good time in batam for my valentine's day special trip (with baby's sisters and partners and in-laws (?!)..). will upload the pictures once baby uploads them into her lappy. ok. i rumbled enuff for today. better go catch some winks so i won't nod all over the person next to me on the train tomorrow morning. tomorrow will be a better day!

by the way, happy & prosperous lunar fire-boar year ya all!!

self-quoted: depressions don't happen around you. it happens within yourself. (that's why red shirt for me tomorrow!)

00:30 - Two types of singers in this world

I still strongly believe that in this world, there are only two types of singers. a good singer and a bad singer. everytime i step into a karaoke room for a session, it is so evident loh. one can either sing a baby to sleep or sing like a crying baby. so what kind of singer am i? i can sing with all 100% of my emotions and feeling, but crack up like no one's business. yes. i am a classified A-list bad singer. enuff said.

i always wonder how can one muster all that lovely voice. did they sell their soul or something?? with all that 'Idol' competition on the tele, there are so many singer wannabes all flaunting all that lovely voices. oh. how my heart ache. what does it take to sing like them?

'you can believe yourself up to a point, but once you crossed that point, you know you have to switch trades and retreat. if not it is self-denial'

23:30 - My pretty thing

that grey box...


for this pretty thing...


implanted with Windows 07' (bet you didn't even know it existed), Adobe Professional Suite and other nutritious technical components, i declare her 'the most updated, most powerful and most prettiest' in my whole organisation. anyway, my boss just reminded me that work expectations are also raised...(gulp)

But nevertheless it looks pretty...

23:09 - Summer Semester is over!

Yes! it is finally over. the horrible summer semester. what a miserable short semester. as i handed in the paper today, i felt a gush of freedom rushing through me. that feeling that screams "i can finally stop eating, sleeping and breathing definitions and theories and read anything besides notes and textbooks!"

but but but the next semester is going to start soon. i have probably a two to three week freedom before the next semester begins? haiz. and to think i have two years more...

by the way, as baby and i go on with our studies, we are slowly adjusting back after years of not studying. we are slowly uncovering the secret skills of study. really. there are techniques to studying. believe me.

but that will be for another day. for now, this i have to share. i told myself i have to share my official examination list with everyone once my paper is done with. sort of like giving recongnition ba.

the list includes-
my official examination music station- power 98.
they can really store good songs in their systems to play back in the wee hours (1am - 5am) of the night. causing some real serious but healthy distractions to my work due to dancing and singing. really red hot songs they play at night. probably even better than in the day. opps. did i really say that?

my official examination drink- pokka green tea. available everywhere and priced reasonably ($1.40 for big bottle in Fairprice), this drink helps in my psychological thinking that it cools down my all-overworked heaty body. doesn't it? it's green tea right?

my official examination sweet- wrigley's doublemint (chewing gum). even thou banned here, but is a good supplement for examinations. it allows me to chew all night long and keep the entrance to my endless pit occupied. i tend to have bigger appetite when examinations or assignment due you know. its a weird co-relation.

and of course my baby! who is forever my motivation and driver to do and seek more to succeed in life. munack! (if you feel cold or anything do yourself a favor and go grab a jacket k. i'm not going to stop yet..) there are many things i could thank you for; for calling at the critical moment when i was dozing off, and studying on the floor with me, and taking a walk when i needed one... so many thank you's' i owe you. oh without you i'll probably be a brown mess.

anyway, really am looking forward for the coming batam trip this Saturday with you to unwind and float and drift or what ever is called to relax. i'll be basking under the bright blue sky, under the watchful sun, watching the world and everything else pass by with you. ooooo.

"goodnight" (too tired to draw inspiration for quotes...)

18:00 - Of work and work

Aei. what am i doing now on blogger? shouldn't i be at work slogging with her and my new mean machine(pc)?

na. not for this three days. baby and i decided to take a break from work for work. work for work? of course la. exams now le.

not that i have much a choice. to work and work is wrong. confirmed fail. so i better focus on the work that i paid 3.6K aussie for. and not work for the peanuts that i give mountains. recently at work. my commander-n-chief gave me instructions to work on a new uniform for a new outlet that will open at a sunny place (no disclosure for that). she really literally gave instructions and i had to follow them closely (gasp)- that is even if i really thought it recks. i tried convincing and nagging but na. they don't work on Directors. anyway, i completed the design and handled it to the designer without looking back (very glad too). so that is for work.

anyway, finished my first subject paper today. and the school played bluff on us. on a written memo, the lecturer wrote the exam format, and it turned out differently (horrer). but of course i didn't trust schools (esp foreign schools) and also i was the usual hardworker who will study more. so being the jack (of all chapters), i also run the risk of border grades. but what to do when you start too late?

i just added a new message on my wardrobe. and it says," don't do last minute work! it never pays. and work till the last minute" i leave you to ponder over that. so for now, i better go prepare. i been mobilised for examinations. haiz.